every girl/woman has a dream, that one day her prince charming, the guy/man who makes her feel like there is no problem too big in this world as long as he is by her side to hold her hand while she walk through that part of her life.
today i went to a wedding that was exactly that...PERFECT...Now am not one to attend weddings or social functions for tha matter but today father was going as well-so it was mandatory for me to attend as well..
dressed to impress, i went all smiley and cheery as can be...the venue was splendid..out doors, slight drizzle, tents, candles..reminded me of how it was being in love all over again...
i was ready to weep...i had always thought that one day i would be the beautiful bride, with all my family around me, all just happy...
today i felt what it what like to not be part of something beautiful, because even as i was there, all i could think of was WHAT DID SHE DO RIGHT THAT I DID WRONG??
my heart is weeping, my mind faltering, all i want to do is run into your arms, but then i realise that you're not there any more...you're but a part of my beautiful dream which will probably remain that way for i want not to try again...all i want to do is feel safe with you...knowing that one day, i will be that bride, and every body will be looking at us and saying how perfect we are for each other...
all i want is YOU..
Good to know I am not the only one who gets a lecture on "is it a need or a want" every time I ask for something. Well written...like reading through your posts...:)
ReplyDeleteSorry posted the wrong comment...I feel like you have written my story. I loved him so much...and he had to go to someone else...and now when I look at all my friends getting married, I aske myself the same questions...I feel you girl...<3
ReplyDeletei just reckon, it wasn;t meant to be :)
ReplyDeleteglad u like me posts :) keep reading :)